Making Changes....

Friday when I pulled up to work, I had a panic attack. I wasn't even sure why but as the day continued I just felt more and more tense. It did not help that when I opened my paycheck, I did not have the pay raise that I was told I was going to have. I'm sure you can imagine my disappointment. Then, on Saturday I woke up feeling sick so I called out and yet work kept calling me! Every time I heard my phone ringing, I would have an anxiety attack. I can't even be sick without being bothered. It got to the point where I turned my phone off because the anxiety was over whelming. A job is not suppose to do that to a person! As of Sunday, I turned my phone on to see more missed calls and voicemails. Upon listening to them, I was told I was expected to be at work at 9 am! The schedule I have states that I was off on Sunday!!! At this point, I decided I am done with the constant changing schedule, the hours of unpaid work, the ridiculous amount of stress, being asked to drop/change my school schedule after it was already approved, and the plethora of other things that should not be happening in a normal business. My sanity is more important to me than walking on eggshells because my status is only "temporarily" and any wrong move I make is the end of me. I called Bellasposa and accepted the position but will continue to seek a position that is a better fit for me. Although photography is my dream, and working at Bellasposa will give me a little experience with Wedding Photography, I am not all that excited about the Bridal Sales part. I think I need a break from bridezillas for awhile. So, I am embarking on a new journey and I'm excited to see where I end up.

On another note, I had a lot of free time today and worked on getting my new room put together. I am now completely unpacked but still have stacks of papers and other stuff I need to sort through. I hung some of my pictures of Paris (from a 2007 Black and White Calender), hung my posters, and put picture frames on my shelves. It's starting to feel more and more like home. I think Millie feels that way too, she spends more time in her favorite spot (the window) and less time hiding under the bed. I love being 3 minutes from Josh, 3-5 minutes from school (depending on traffic), still only 10 minutes from work. I have barely spent any money on gas! It's great (cuz I'm broke) :p Anyway, time to try and sleep...Good nite world.....